Do you ever get the impression that no matter how good things are, amazing your life is or that you’ve exceeded your every expectation and go in life, that things are just doomed for you? Like there is something right around the corner ready to end all the glory? Why is it that we always fixate on the bad? Is it something that we do as a self defense mechanism so we will never let ourselves be surprised by the horrors of life? I think that when I get in my head about something that I love, it’s always a two way street. If there is something that is so amazing, it’s only logical that we understand what we have to lose. This can be extremely positive or negative depending on what you do with that information. If we allow it to manifest in the appreciation for something and cherish the time we have with that, then it will only make whatever it is, so much better. If we dwell on an infinite number of bad things happening and what ifs, then it will make whatever it is almost unbearable. Something that I’ve had to train myself to do is allow myself to enjoy the good and not push people away because whatever is so good can’t possibly be that good. I used to talk myself out of happiness and live in a place where nobody was close enough to hurt me. One of the best things I could have done was to allow myself a bit of optimism, in doses and look for the good in people and moments in life. What do you think? Have you ever been ominous about something? Something ever too good to be true without anything backing it up? Maybe you knew things were exactly how you want them but you can’t accept the joy?
